26 October 2009
after i finish this post.. i swear i wun bring it up again anymore.
and i wun tink about it anymore.
i'm hurt.
truly hurt.
she's the one i cared for the most.
loved the most.
she does appreciate..
but in the end..
still saying things like she doesn't understands me at all.
always judging on things based on her own assumptions/perspective.
does she ever sit down.. ask herself..
"am i correct in stating all these statements?"
only some words.. but it strucked me deeply.
i lied that i'm just tired and i just wants to go home to rest.
while on the cab..
tears kept rolling down.
din tell him.
at that time of foolishness..
i thought he regards me the same way as how she tink of me.
but what he said at that point of time..
made me teared.
reached home with lights off until he came.
was tearing for an hour plus b4 i call him.
called someone.. crying.. but still.. din tell her anything.
din wan to worry her.
din wan to disturb her time.
so.. purposely changed subject and made myself feel better.
why do i tear?
because she's someone whom i love most.
wants the best for her.
but yet, times again she's the one who don't understand me most.
received assurances from da jie & bro in law.
those assurances meant alot to me. really.
over the phone calls.. i just tear silently.
i don't want to see those msgs.
it'll only hurt feelings even more.
tears over this matter will end now.
not gonna tear for this matter anymore.
its the past.
its all about compromising..
i still love her.. my er jie.
11:41 PM
